Hajimero

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Useless rant…

I’m becoming one of those women…I can see the steps clearly that are turning me from me how I used to know myself to this stereotypcial being.

And it doesn’t help that I know where this is coming from. It’s obvious. I’m turning 30 this year. I have a safe job for the next five years at least and will be working part-time from June on. Jo and I have been together for almost seven years and always said that we’ll start a family some day…so all this adds up to starting to think about kids in the near future…and the fact that I had a condition that was on its way of turning into cervical cancer really doesn’t help…

So now I on the one hand have a biological clock that’s ticking into my ear loud and clear and on the other hand am nowhere near ready for a step like that…nor is Jo…and I’m mad that I have to think about this now. I’m mad that I can’t just be relaxed about it and see what happens in a few years because in a few years I might be too old or the cancer might come back and I won’t have the option anymore.

Fuck you biology. That’s all.

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